our new baby Natalia (full name is not allowed here for security reason ) has arrived to this real world on 22nd of march 2011 at Hospital Ampang, Selangor.
They said and giving birth for the 2nd one can be a lot easier as the ‘path’ is already built by the first child.. God knows and as for myself, i experienced an easy labor for my second baby.. Alhamdulillah..

The sign are just the same like the Syafiq. My water broke while we were just resting on our bed, the three of us.. the suddenly when i turn my body a bit i heard a ‘click’ sound and I THINK the sound came from my body. i seriously thought it was my waterbag and yes, that was so true….

During this pregnancy, I didnt gain a lot of weight compared to Syaf. I can control my diet as i always aimed for gaining 1-1.5 kg only permonth. Overall, I gain about 10Kg (but during Syafiq, i gained about 20KG!!!!!!)

I was supposed to have an MGTT test at HUKM, because they said my amnion fluid is excessive and they want to confirm whether i have diabetic or not.. i hate doing MGTT test. i was complaining about it since a week ago and always talk to Natalia to come out before mummy swallow the puke-able glucose drink.

Natalia kinda listen to what mummy said but she did it last minute way… its okay as long as you listen dear.

ok, after that, we sent syaf to opah’s house and my bee drove me to the hospital. And that time, i started to feel damn scared. scared to death. i can elaborate below:-
- Can i stand the pain? Coz I’ve through it for my first labour;
- Can i deliver normal?
- will there be any complications during labour and i probably need to get emergency Op.
- Are we going to succeed this time (both my and baby)
- how long the contraction will take (this time i havent feel any contraction yet, but last time i had it for 6 hours)
- how long will i be in the labour room (last time 4 hours)
- lot more to mentionnnnn

all of those feelings/ questions have come into a conclusion :-

I NEED AN EPIDURAL

i’ve set into my mind, that i MUST get the “happydural”.

So by 2pm right after my husband went back from visiting me, i felt the contraction already. it came every 10-15 minutes I guess.. But that time, i thought i couldnt stand anymore..

Then by 4.30pm, the nurse asked me to change the labour room “uniform”. so i changed it and while i wanted to seat on the wheelchair, my husband came and asked what happened. i told him im going to give birth already. he smiled. but i wanted to cry. i really really wanted to cry but it didnt come out. same like last time. why? probably i have so many things in my mind. like, will i survive? plus i am missing syafiq so much…

so by 4.40pm i was already in the labour room. and i asked the nurse to get me an epidural. probably the nurse cant stand me anymore she said “awak ni tak habis habis epidural. awak sebab dah set otak awak nak epidural. awak kan pernah bersalin.”
“sebab saya tahu sakitnya macam mana la saya tanak sakit lagi macam dulu” wowowow… sempat menjawab dalam kesakitan..
“ni, kalau sakit awak sedut gas ni” – ethanox(?)
well, dalam masa sakit tu, i still realize there are 2 cute n handsome young doctors inside my labour room.
i suddenly remember my colleague Hany Suraya told me about the cute n handsome doctors in Hospital Ampang …
“bila husband i boleh masuk ek” i asked the nurse- wanting my husband to witness my pain.. (jahat tak) actually i need him by my side – giving me strength, all women need theirs.
“tunggu doktor cek record dulu” i cant really hear what she said but i found the ethanox helped me a lot la.. i liked it!!!
there was one time when i was in contraction, and took the gas and the handsome doc taught and helped me to use it the right way.. hmmm….
“tasha concerntrate!!! you are about to give birth ok”

Well, suddenly a woman doctor came to me and asked me whether i feel like pushing or not. when i said yes, she asked me to do it.. well not long after that, i gave birth to our baby girl at 5.08pm.

i was quite surprise because it was so fast. Alhamdulillah.. Allah gave me strength plus the doctors and nurses are so helpful.. they helped me too!!!

and guess what, abot 30 minutes later, i came out from the labour room carrying my baby, all of them were smiling, my parents, my husband parents and of course my husband… he said thank God he didnt witness it. (omigod!!! its that what you want??)

btw, meet our baby Natalia..

its been a really really long time i guess since my last blog.. well for one obvious reason- i had a terrible pregnancy sickness. at this time, my pregnancy has reached 16 weeks or 4th month, which my sickness is not as bad as before. I just had the same sickness when i was carrrying Syafiq. It was fully over when i reached 5 months and i hope in 1 month’s time, my sickness is gone..

Thank God during raya my sickness wasnt as bad as 2nd week of puasa. On the 2nd week of Ramadhan, my husband had to send me back to my mom’s hometown in Malacca which is about 2 hours driving.. at that time, i couldnt imagine how can i stand for a long drive in the car. To take care of Syafiq and my pregnancy sickness.. but when i think back that i can have a rest and a really good meal at my mom’s house, terpaksa juga went through the journey- without vomiting in the car…

overall, now my sickness is quite okay compare to my 8th – 12th week’s pregnancy. i can even start cooking for dinner ok??? how im impressed. last time, i cant smell local food. and i started cooking when i was 7th month’s pregnant..

do you think this time is a girl??? i hope so..

jom tengok perbezaan semasa mengandungkan syafiq dan sekarang:-

syafiq:
1) tak tahan bau orang masak/ menumis
2) benci lauk berminyak especially sambal tumis (this time Ajai suka sangat makan sambal sotong and i hate sambal sotong so much- especially sambal sotong basah kena gunting tu)
3) hate the smell of nescafe (in the office) and the smell of CNI tongkat Ali 3 in 1 (yang ajai minum) benci sangat sangat..
4) tak suka mekap, tak suka pakai moisturizer, pergi kerja tak pakai apa2 langsung n sangat hodoh
5) suka kunyah ais (masa early pregnancy)
7) suka beli baju kaler2 gelap (hitam, coklat gelap, biru gelap) – maybe tak dpt terima diri semakin gemuks..
8) muntah2 since 5 minggu until lebih kurang 4 bulan camtu la.. tapi tak seteruk this time..
9) start masak masa 7 bulan
10) tak pernah cuti sebab tak larat (muntah), terpaksa pergi kerja walaupun menangis nangis salam hubby…
hmm ape lagi ek??? tak ingat daaaa..

sekarang:
1) muntah2 teruk start 8minggu – 12 minggu.. teruk sangat.. sampai terbaring2 and dehydrated.. doc advise pergi spital masuk air but aku yg taknak.. kuatkan diri makan n minum juga… sebab ada syafiq..
2) sayang teramat sangat kat syafiq…
3) ambik 1 minggu cuti balik kampung and tak kerja (malas)
4) cepat penat/ semput
5) start masak 3 bulan setengah (hehehehe)
6) suka sambal sotong putih (aku masak sendiri)
7) macam biasa – pakai moisturizer, foundation gi kerja.. takdelah tak mekap langsung
8) boleh accept bau nescafe & CNI cafe
9) boleh accept bau orang masak or menumis.. but still tak suka tengok lauk2 orang jual di pasar ramadhan.. geli.. yikes..
10) prefer makan lauk masakan sendiri
11) oh yeah.. suka pakai baju kaler2 ceria… cam pink, purple… not black ok!!!!

hmmmm tu jer……

will update soon with gambar raya kami!!!!!

last week on Monday i went to see the doctor and told him that ‘im late’ ~ he smiled at me and ask the nurse to do ‘PT’ on me.

i didnt know why i didnt have the guts or excitement to do it myself at home. i just didnt know why. so after that, i handed my urine to the nurse and not long after she looked at me and smiled. “memang u plan ek?”..
i didnt answer, but i asked her “2 line ke?”
she smiled and nodded. “memang plan ke?” oh okay… she still wanted me to answer her
“tak kisah sebenarnya”

and suddenly, without realised, i was so happy.. i smsed my husband, nana, dina, my mom, my sister… why? why? why? becuase they said every time we are pregnant, we will feel the same way like the first time we found out..

i felt like a phycopath. yesterday i was so down. without knowing the reasons. i even cried when i looked at syafiq. i suddenly felt like, our time with syafiq will be over soon. but why do i have those feelings??? the thing is, im pregnant, im gonna carry syafiq’s sister or brother. she/ he will be the same like syafiq. we will treat our baby just like how we treat syafiq. we are not going to have only one child ok!!!!

and after i met doctor and found out i was pregnant, i really feel so happy and excited. the feelings are just the same. same. same. same. syafiq will be the elder brother.

now, i have to think lotsa things. same as how i thought when i carry syafiq in my womb.
1) PREGNANCY CHECKUP – where? same as syafiq?? or private this time?? have to think the budget too..
2) DELIVER. where? if we already move to Jalan Ipoh, i think PPUM is the ideal place.
3) BF. same as syafiq. always..
4) train the baby to sleep in BABY COT instead of my arms- i have to get one. Syafiq has a playpen but i passed to my sister already.
5) NEW BORN clothes. only few from Syafiq left.. since Syafiq is still wearing his 0-3 months clother ok.
6) LEESA FORMULA for confinement set
7) MAMY POKO pampers – i always love this
8) what else???
9) the most important thing, i want to pantang betul2 this time… not like when i was gave birth to Syafiq. Pantang main2..

syaf dear, mummy n daddy will train you how to be a big brother ok?

this isnt my first time being ‘late’. Its been 5-6 months after i got my frist menses after gave birth. ok i dont have to mention in details but every months before i have the same fear but this time, these fears extended to some happiness inside.

i have mixed feelings. but if its true.. i m so happy. I only have one fear. The fear of having the all day & night nauseas & sickness. it was a bit okay last time because we dont have syafiq around. i just cant imagine if its happening again.

they said not all pregnancies we are facing will be the same? i hope i this time it wont be the same like syafiq’s.. bukan apa.. dulu syafiq takde.. mama senang nak malas2.. this time syafiq ada… nnt syafiq kena babab ngan mama kang.. sian syafiq kan? kan? kan?

just wait until its really confirmed..

i know i know.. i have a blog but really really lack of updates. why? i also dont know.

probably i was so busy of. at work and at home. lately, i have to cook every day after come back from work. i found it not that fussy actually. the main reason is syafiq needs to have a proper and healthy dinner so might as well i cook but my husband. oh yeah, since my brother also staying with me, i see the reason why i need to cook everyday. 4 pax in the house. if only my husband & me i think we eat outside everyday.

they said the best meal for your loved ones are the ones that we cook. from our air tangan.

below are the top 10 favourite dishes for dinner / weekend lunch:-

1) sambal udang campur sotong (yummy.. sometimes before balik lagi abang ajai dah sms suruh prepare lauk ni mlm kang);

2) ayam goreng bercili;

3) sup ayam (sesuai for syafiq coz got kentang, sayur in it);

4) ikan keli goreng bercili;

5) lala goreng bercili;

6) ikan bawal goreng bercili;

7) paru goreng bercili;

8) sambal sardine (bestnyerrrr.. ~~)

9) sambal telur

10) tempe goreng (hehehe- ni aku yg punya favorite ni- elok untuk otak jadi cerdas n cergas)

well, from the above dishes, i can conclude that we eat hot & spicy stuffs everyday. my brother also HAVE to accept my cook is so spicy (all these requested by my husband) otherwise, he doesnt want to makan.. so i yang sedih right???

Allright… the main reason why i feel like writing my blog tonight is because of syafiq.

he just fell asleep after being an extraordinary fussy about a lot of things.

his temperature increased to fever since for 2 nights in a row since thursday. only today i learned that he is having his 2nd teething period. today was the peak period i guess because when we tried to make him forgot that he was in pain by playing with him big time, he suddenly cried and screamed in a sudden. then i was like “what’s wrong dear?” my husband then told me he probably the pain was coming that time. and we made him forget that he’s in pain. we played with him. avoid mistakes becuase otherwise he will having some kind of tantrum. you know.. like hentak2 kaki on the floor and buat badan lembik.

not to forget.. he can be so clingy. Yesterday, syafiq nempel at me from 930 pm until 1230 am. he really2 didt want to let me go. i had no idea he was uncorfortable but luckily i was ok also.. since friday night and i didnt have to work on the next day.

but what ever it is, we know this is coming. when we were playing with syafiq and he was stunned by few commercial breaks, both of us looked at syafiq’s face. my husband said that he is a big boy now and will be naughtier.. by looking at the situation right now, how naughty syafiq is. but i have different views.

Syafis will continue become like this if we dont help him and teach him which are good behaving and which arent. thats what i think. no matter how busy i am, i will make sure my objectives are met. i dont think i should mention here, but one of it is “respect people especially elder people”.. the rest, quality mommies can think right?

think i should stop by now. syafiq been awake for 4 times.

do you believe if i tell you i spend 2 hours to write this blog (because syafiq is so jealous so he night wake few times to get my attention

Dear syafiq,

Today, 27.4.2010 is your 1st birthday. This morning when mummy woke up at 6am, all the memories inside the labour room appeared in mommy’s head in a sudden.

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Last year, mummy was pushed to the labour room at 4.30 am. Daddy was with mummy to give moral support (though sometimes mummy also give him back because mummy knew your daddy was so sleepy and he also needs moral support to keep awake). Mummy also was sleepy. Mummy love to sleep (you know that) but mummy HAD to let you out from mummy’s tummy first. Daddy & Mummy’s last nap was about 3.30pm – 4.30pm on Sunday 26.4.2009. (Don’t forget it was also your parent’s [which is mummy n daddy] 1st year wedding anniversary). So we didn’t go anywhere except mummy fried banana fritters to your daddy and to your wan & atok.

After your wan & atok went back to your untie’s house in Sg Besi, daddy & mummy planned to go out and celebrate our wedding anniversary (mummy actually thought didn’t want to celebrate because mummy didn’t know what to wear.. mummy was so phat and look not cool) so, daddy agreed and he said he’ll just tapau lala goreng berlada n ikan masak pedas for us at a foodshop in taman melawati.

So right after your daddy went out, mummy went to the room and rest a bit (biasalah… malas2 pregnant ni).. and when mummy wanted to have my shower, suddenly mummy’s water broke (or maybe your water because you were in it). So mummy looked at the mirror in front of me and asked myself (since nobody was around) “is this what they called waterbreaking, etc?” and mummy replied alone “I think so”.. Mummy was so wondering why your dad still not home yet as usually he wont be this long. Its almost 1.5hour.. so mummy tried to look for mummy’s handphone to call your dad.. but mummy only found daddy’s handphone on the dressing table.. Your father didn’t bring his handphone for the first time!!!!. So using daddy’s handphone mummy called the hukm emergency room. “Hello, my water broke” mummy said
“Take it easy maam, is it a lot”
“I don’t know, I cant measure”, “by the way, can I still have dinner n take shower?”
“Of course.. don’t worry, but after that don’t forget to wear a pad and straight away come here, where do you live?” “wangsa maju”..

Then mummy called your nenek and she tried to smooth mummy. Wait wait, mummy wasn’t panic. But they way your nenek talked to me so kelam kabut mummy also cant remember what she said until right now..

15 minutes later mummy heard somebody opened the door. It was your father and mummy called “b…”
“why? Why? Whats happening???” your father was SO panic he said he could hear something’s wrong in mummy’s voice.
“come here laaa” your dad came to mummy so quick after he put the tapau food on dining table. Mummy still not panic..
“I think my water is breaking. Can you please hand me my towel, I want to take my shower first”
Daddy was still so panic, he looked at the drawer although mummy hang the towel behind me. Mummy smiled alone
“hand me also my kain batik, and pad” those things inside the drawer.. and your daddy looked for it at the first drawer where he already knew we put out letters (bank statement, etc) inside it. And he opened the 2nd drawer. He couldn’t find the kain batik.
With a soothing voice, mummy said “I think I pack everything inside the car…” mummy wanted to ask your father to take it from the car but your father handed me his kain pelikat. He said “ahhh.. just wear this one”.. mummy laughed again..
Then mummy had a nice shower.. and washed mummy hair.. after this mummy though wanted to blow dry and had dinner..
After mummy came out, your daddy shouted “fast fast, quick quick, I called mak he said must go to the emergency room straight away!!!”
“but I called the emergency room she said can take shower and have dinner first!!”
Mummy had no choice… we went to the hukm o&g emergency room and mummy checked in with wearing your father XL size tshirt and his petak2 grey kain pelikat.
“I have made a reservation..” ekekekeke.. after few procedures mummy being sent to the ward. That was about 11pm.

12am your nenek n atok reached from Malacca and straight away met mummy at the ward. Mummy felt like crying but mummy tried to control the emotional feelings..

2am mummy felt so pain- mummy thought that the most painful.. but it was only 10%..

Mummy listen to surah mariam in mummy’s ipod.

The doctor said they will do the VC at 6.45 but I mummy cant tahan anymore, after that they do again at 3pm after seeing mummy acted/ faces so painful

But wait, while mummy walking to the toilet.. mommy saw a woman keep looking at her baby and mommy said to myself, I’ll do that tomorrow night.. looking at mummy’s baby sweet face.

And mummy being VCed again around 3.30am and they said can send to labor room already. That was the time when mummy feel so so scared but mummy didn’t show it to anyone, to your dad, nenek, wan, nurses, etc. mummy tried to smile but suddenly mummy feel mummy’s tears are falling.. nenek n wan stroked mummy hair and said, be strong..

Mommy asked for everybody’s forgiveness.. just in case.. but your daddy always got mad when mummy about the say the rest.

We were the earliest bird to reach the labor room. Nurses and the doc were sleeping and lights were off. There were no patient in the labour theatre. They switched on the lights to ‘welcome’ us.

6am++ mummy couldn’t stand the painful, mummy tried to tell your father but he could just say “be patience darling, remember Allah..”, no words came out from mummy’s mouth.

Then one nurse came to mummy and presented some painkillers to kill mummy’s pain – mummy didn’t realized mummy asked for a painkiller. She said she has pentadene (??), epidural – mummy straight away ask for epidural. Then the nurse said “but our specialist only comes at 8.30am..”

God, mummy cannot tahan.. mummy looked at the clock – it was 6.45am!! how long mummy gonna go through this pain????

Mummy heard a baby cried at the next labour room..

Then, after about less than 1.5 hour later.. mummy really really felt like it’s the time.

So by 8.15am the nurses, midwives and doctor all came to mummy’s labour room and everybody was giving support to mommy for giving birth to you. After the 3rd push.. mummy gave up. Mummy could care less if they want to vacuum, forceps or operate… and mummy lay down mummy’s head.. felt like out of energy.. and while mummy rest down mummy head, in a blurry eyes, mummy saw a baby came out… and everybody was like cheering happily.. and that was the only time mummy cried..

In less than 1 hour, the midwife passed you to me. And mummy breastfed you for the first time.. mummy was so thankful to Allah for bring you in mummy n daddy’s world. We love each other very much and you are here because of our love. We’ll do our best to raise you along with the love we have. .

xoxo

At the time this picture is taken – I was single.

The next day, I became Ajai’s girlfriend. Haha..

It was around 17.7.2003. I still remember the date which he always couldn’t.

“Too many dates to remember”, Ajai being grumpy.

“I don’t think it’s a problem”, Tasha replied.

“It is”, Ajai replied back

“I remember my parents’ birthdays. And my all of my siblings also” This time Tasha thought she could win the arguement!!

“I know why. Because I failed Chemical in my SPM 98!” Ajai raised his voice a little, pulling Tasha’s ponytail.

“ewww!!! nothing to do with that!!!” Tasha pulled back her using the strength of her head.

After that, Tasha chased Ajai away from the kitchen and asked him to stop annoying her while she’s preparing dinner for that night.

“You better vacuum the living hall. and the room. And wipe the dust.  And wash all the clothes”,  Tasha started nagging. As usual..

“Change Syafiq’s clothes. Recharge my handphone’s battery. Feed fish. Change to AXN channel. By the way, who’s watching tha lame malay drama??? she continued.

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Oooops Ajai is here already. Gtg now.. catcha later.

ps’ this is created when i was waiting for him to fetch me home from office. .. I saw the pic above. Tried to remember our good times when we were early in love… -but, nevermind.

Time to go home and hug my lil boy A LOT-

pss’ the above is purely my imagination only… never happend to us except ‘pulling my ponytail’  part.

xoxo